Wednesday, June 29
10:50 PM
ok.. long story short, had napfa the other day, cleared the other stations nicely, except for that one dastardly jinxed station.. 2.4.. can u believe it? everybody failed it.. except for hui shing, then again, she could have passed juz by walking alone.. lol , she's nice.. yup.. then cuz of new shoes, n running without socks.. my toe was subject to abrasion, esp in round 5 and 6.. after which (after i failed that is), i immediately took off my shoes, n wat do u knw.. my big toe was bleeding, cuz a whole patch of the skin had torn off, and a bigger patch would have torn if i kept running( cuz there was a ring of blood one cm diameter away frm the actual wound, internally that is..) yup.. then ya i FAILED, haaiz.. for which sum of us have decided to go train every tues or so.. cuz if they dun, i will surely go ahead wif it.. Heee.. and then next day, nt too bad, wore sandals, n i thought ok, it was nth really ( esp after they were telling me to take a cab home.. HUUUH?) so next day, which is .. tdy.. i wore shoes.. BAD CHOICE! i did esp a lot of walking ( frm blk a to p to a agn..) after which went to boon lay.. once again.. LOTS OF WALKING... came back arnd 10, n realised my wound was worse.. the flesh was loads redder then the first time.. ( once agn, too much abrasion on the already abrasion-ed spot), then my mum was like.. remove the skin which is still stuck on ( so the wound could get proper circulation.. huhhh?) n she gladly did the honours.. halfway thru, eeeEE... so red! n sh stopped halfway.. gd timing mum.. then put the plaster, n cuz it wasnt put 'perfectly into place' my mudder actually took off the plaster with one swift motion of her hand, n tightly pressed it around the wound.. ( ouch! i mean.. OUCH!) my gdness, sheer torture, on one toe.. n because i had to limp abit due to the (abrasion again..) wearing of shoes.. my left leg gt strained, n my right foot got stiff, which meant, i might be keeping the limp for a short while.. oH.. this Sux.. sorry leg. sorry toe.. n ps: 'me n mit r going thru the exact same things.. ' hw freaky is dat?? its a strong case of denial.. one which we are pretty happy abt actually.. LOL! maybe we'll bth see SAM in the mental hospital one day, we cld be good frenz! HeeBabbling is an art form, advanced poetry to those who can see
Monday, June 27
10:01 PM
Time will heal - the truth? Or untrue?
one fine morning as i tossed on my bed,
two voices lay whispering inside of my head.
Angel and devil both screaming "ATTENTION!!"
what else could i do, but obey and to listen?
conclusions, assumptions, presumptions and more
the cause, the answer, and the words that tore,
friendships apart, and hatred abound..
but patience, a virtue, and a virtue means more.
these set me thinking, its not easy to see
what i really am feeling, could someone tell me?
please help me clear my cloudy skies
what truly lies beyond white-lies- ...
confusion is the road to a clearer pasture
Saturday, June 25
5:37 PM
ok.. for napfa had to go buy shoes.. my gdness, hmm burnt a hole in my pocket.. plus running shorts.. but i decided that since i bought them, im gonna go running probably weekly, make full use of them. Tdy jie go ask me to dwnload MapleSea, dwnloaded ..TWICE! cuz the first time i gt disconnected.. nvm download le.. lets c if it works. Yeap.. n well i've sorted out my thoughts, i c no reason wat so ever to kp fuming all day long since it gets to run arnd all full of smiles.. i've decided to try n be as normal as i ever was, except , Except.. avvalo easya ithu mudiyalae.. naanga kandippa peasatthan poarom? yeanna, appadithan. veanumna ithaiyum mozhipeyarthu paaru, unakku mattum peasa theriyumnu ninaikathae, yeana naan peasi nee parrthethillai.. ippo solrathu unakku yearutha illaiyanu theriyathu. Aanaa, yen melai thappa pazhiyellam sumathinele. athukku bathil.. kandippa thevai. one more thing. paal podiyan, yeankittayeava. LOL! a problem solved is a lesson learnt
Friday, June 24
7:26 PM
eY! Sampan mate... aka JUN aka valerie( french name),Konichiwa LOL! we've been sailing ever since year 1, but officially signed the contract ( which i still have , Heee). in year two. Today you turn 19, ( oops!) . I already wished you in the morning, but here's a nicer one.. Hmm. honestly saying, it was great fun having you around in class, despite the fact that your jokes got colder and colder ( which you passed on to sharifa also, who happens to be ah mu.). Do i miss having you in class? Yes! also remembered how we both went through the World skills thing.. how to forget right.. the experience was soo.. scary.. LOL! not to mention the person we both didn't like.. juz way too much talking from him.. AND then there were the math classes, its always either Ben, or you i come to .. yup. Your next birthday will be as a graduate im guessing, by that time, everybody got their own paths le.. But i will not forget how i named you JUN, and then it followed throughout poly, which you also mentioned in your friendster testimonial to me. Heee.. the crappy lobster girl who always says August when i call you.. HahHA! sorry.. juz remembered the way you reacted when we came to look for you in taka.. my goodness, i never knew you could turn sooo red!! No matter what, you always keep rowing, your OAR! (not your sampan). When i broke down a long time ago, you and sharifa were actually there for me in a way. I will not forget that.. how to forget good people and good things right? Being the cancerian that you are, you were always the impartial one, fair to everyone no matter what. That is an attribute i always admired in you. Here's wishing you more great years ahead! Keep rowing! And of course, keep working on those jokes.. We may lose touch over the years ( it happens to everybody ), but whatever the case, i hope to see you ( after we graduate and stuff ) out there some day. A smart and humourous friend who will remain true to the people around her. Khor Li Jun, i am proud to be able to say that i am your friend. Kudos . A friend in need is always a friend indeed.
Thursday, June 23
11:15 PM
what m i supposed to say , wen it all sounds wrong.. what m i supposed to say, wen im nt even supposed to say anything.. bound only by people.. it would never have taken me any longer to react. such things happened in my last year of pri sch, n sec sch.. third time.. n it didnt come as a surprise.. n u.. dun worry.. i will nt say anything.. thats wat u think isnt it.. that i would.. excuse me.. i have alot more brains then that.. only i knw how much u have actually said.. only i knw how much it actually hurt.. but seriously.. fuck care.. nt worth my time, words may nvr kill..? MY ASS! i do apologize however to those of u who did nt want me to do this.. cuz only i knw wat i wld do wen i lose control agn.. n i assure u guys.. nt a single word .. frm my mouth.. sumthing i didnt have to do.. now i even have to make general clauses to affirm wat i say.. hmmPh..
Friday, June 17
9:07 PM
Lol! number ONE, im nt in any relationship.. seriously.. juz because i sumhow put my status as married in friendster duzn mean im in sumthing.. number TWO , the class seems better now that the teachers seem friendlier plus slowly by slowly pple r actually saying sumthing ( the answers to qns.. lol but at least its a start!). number THREE ,french club is gng thru a bad patch.. okok nt the club per say, but juz sum. there's a huge amount of mishaps, misunderstandings and miscalculations going on, the 3 missus. Haaiz.. i was telling shahana tdy, no matter how mature we think we are, teenagers are still teenagers, at sum point of time, we r gonna act like kids.. which i think all of us are doing now.. n i was kinda pissed off in the morning.. dark clouds were literally hanging above my head*( ok, so it was going to rain.. but there WERE still dark clouds), n i was thinking how much i actually enjoyed the long bus rides and the slow walks to n from AMK interchange. tdy was no exception. i juz sat thru the ride, listening to songs n thinking,.. what if .. juz what if.. since we always tend to say, if i get angry i'll do this this this.. wen i got angry i did that that that, n sumhow we are very easily pissed or freaked out or angry over sumthin. i was thinking, what if GOD decided to juz be like us for a day.. juz get fired up over small things n actually vents it like us.. imagine the plight of several pple, maybe even the whole world.. surely u can say no such thing will happen, n that HE's perfect n humans are not.. but y can't we juz try to control ourselves, patience is a virtue, practicing it is nt easy, but it really helps. the best results never come out of anger. This goes to all who are angry at sumbody or everybody. stop . breathe.think. the world is open to all your dreams. its up to u to make or break any situation. Think about it.
Sunday, June 12
2:45 PM
Lol! sumthing we kept hearing back at club crawl. That was a gd two days seriously.. away from class yes, but at sports hall it was so much fun! Even though had to come to sch at 8 in the morn, meeting up wif shahana, nuh mithya, n now introducing malar! lol. it was juz great. Btw malar is by far the best talker i've seen. the girl's very convincing. she may nt have joined us in our prev events, bt the way she tells the yr 1's n 2's , its like she's been wif us all the way. and she fits in like a piece in a puzzle. kudos to u. beacuase of u, we have seen a sign up of 90 to 100 odd people. ( probably the largest in a long time of french club history. ) Then aishah in the fencing costume lol! the woman's alwys sporting! no wonder she's our president. sureen came back after a long itme, urging the girls to target other indian girls.. lol! how diff is that. but the guy's still cool. LOL! the dance wen really well.. the 2nd day was fuyyoo!! i had to run back to blk p frm blk g juz 10 mins before the performance! once i came back i was freaking tired out la.. but i still tried to do well in the dance. it was loads better then last sems .. very scary experience yes. even funnier was the after the event .. including tkd performances, stage arts, foreign bodies, n NYP idol! the place rocked la.. some of us stayed in the clubroom on both days jzu eating talking n having fun. on the 2nd day, this thing happened.. lol! which made sumone freak out.. well then again, that person was the main reason.. hmm ya.. n i got to knw sumthign else.. lets juz say it was a hunch which came to be a fact. lol! hv fun y'all cuz i knw i m..
Sunday, June 5
8:10 PM
i think i actually complain too much.. ;p but somehow i also manage to think of the brighter side of things juz as easily.. lol.. im such an irony..
Thursday, June 2
11:46 PM
Rite, juz been searchin arnd for nuthin in particular.. actually came across vanisha's blog. nice.. written style is really goOod.. yup. anywayZ back in class, nth much happening, james cld actually tell em that he wanted to eneter a diff specialization,lol wun blame him for that though. i like wat im learning, wats bad though is hw my class is freakin quiet. its like sumbody died or sumthin n everybody's in mourning freaking silence..
sumtimes silence is louder then actual noise. n thats a fact. busy wif club crawl stuff also wif nuh n da rest.. ended up taking loads of pictures.. still hv them.. lol.. wooOOoo good pictures.. :p im so proud of miself
( pat myself on the back) i've realised i've become a lot more shameless, that words cant really kill me.. n that i've gotta rely on myself in order to get my things done.. relying on others.. naaah! prob nt gonna be my style any longer. im 18.. time to shake up mi life a bit .
its fun bein wif mit, shah n nuh.. they are young.. but even younger at heart. i like their spontaniety.. kinda learnt frm them that way... my sister wrote this one day.. made alot of sense to me.. life is short, thats y happiness is shortlived.. woo Hoo.. wat can i do nw.. time to try n get the pple in my class talking.. nt sumthing i wld do..
but as unofficial class rep, i shall try. n now dats sumthing.